Melting into the hospital halls
Emptying my soul into the merciless cries
We all hum the same tune of agony and prayer. We all give our all, lest to be faltered by defeat.
There are moments of unendurable, unending torment that flows with our tears like a river, that flows with our tears like a river...
There are moments of unbelievable LOVE and STRENGTH that there will never be words for. The breakthroughs come in waves, just like our tears. Just when you think you cannot stand it one second longer, when your raggedy body might splice into its bottomless remains, it is He who holds you.
A call cries out from the universe and says, "I will lift you. You are not done. You can hold on. In my hands, you are saved." You reach up from your cast and poles of iron and walk. For some it may have been months you have not walked, others years. Glued to a bed that gives you more pain, and eats away all your muscles, You have only known this to be your fate. You see not one flower from the earth, feel not one breeze, see the swells of not one stormy cloud, feel not the rain. There is not one stream of sunlight upon your face. Chained to your bed you are. The hymns of your vital machinery is all you know, and chimes of nurses waking you up for your vitals and medicine to keep you ALIVE is your only nursery rhyme.
You feel the strength of the universe stinging through your toes, the kindness of souls wrapping you clean every day. The unforgiving anguish you bear as your redemption to God; for anyone who suffers in your name. To sacrifice your name in his name. What is it worth after all? These thoughts go rampant through ones mind.
Until the day you shut your eyes. The preacher says his prayer. Your family surrounds you in comfort, and you accept their knowing love, and forgiveness; they are there. You take your last breath, but you are somehow not scared. If it was all in vain, I know, I would have still wanted you right there.
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